<p>It has been a little while since my last post and it's strange how things have changed. Same job, less friends, new boyfriend, new puppy. Basically its all coming together.</p>
<p>My depression is still getting bad at times and although I have suffered the downfalls, I am still alive--I may never understand why. I thought since I started taking medications I wouldn't need to write my thoughts down or anything of the like. The truth is, I still need a place to vent and ramble. </p>
<p>I haven't been sleeping lately.  Just my brain is filled with so much. I miss being able to get through anything with a smile and laugh any situation off. I can't do that anymore. I feel as if I am too alone to even attempt a smile at times.  Not that anyone cares but I still admit that it's hard to get out of bed at times. It's hard living with who I am and what I've done. I don't understand why. I've done everything I know how to get my life together at the very best I could but I can't help but feeling as if I am missing something. And I don't think I can do this alone. I'm improving everyday but I still have a long way to go to get to where I need to be.</p>
Maybe soon, I can possibly get rest and figure things out. Until then I will wait for the storm to pass.
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